For the last couple of days I have had this odd feeling about me. I haven't been able to put my finger on it, thought it could be a feeling of various things, but just now as I climbed into bed it hit me- it is the feeling of content. Talk about a shocker-in no way do I think I should be feeling content. But I do.
Now I am not saying that I am in any way finally happy with my new life situation or that I am glad things are the way they are- but I am saying that I am finally feeling some peace, and that is huge.
The kids and I are finally getting a routine down, I have finished another successful year at work, I have some fun summer plans to look forward to, my ex and I are getting along quite fantastically, and well things seem ok at the moment.
I am hoping that this feeling of content is the road to feeling healing, and maybe even at some point a reconciliation, but no matter what I am glad for this peace that I am finally feeling.
For the first time in months I am feeling like I have a handle on my life, feeling like no matter what I am going to be ok, and feeling like my life is back on some sort o track.
This new life is far from perfect, but it is my new life- and I will take the little blessings one at a time- and I will gladly accept this feeling of content- because today it will do.
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