Boy did I get my panties in a bunch today- and I really hate that I did, because anger doesn't serve any purpose. Words were said today, actions were done, and none of them were good in any way. It makes me mad that I acted and reacted, and then I get mad because I honestly feel like I have good reason to act and react darn it! But really what good is it doing but just making me feel yucky inside- he doesn't care how I felt afterwards, and even if he did I would never give him the satisfaction of knowing how he made me feel.
I was literally so upset by what happened today that I found myself typing this just so I can not be angry anymore, and as I type this it becomes clear to me that Satan himself is behind all this anger. He loves seeing us angry, he loves pitting us against one another, he loves getting us all riled up, and he loves to see us feel hurt and alone. I will not let him have that power over me, I refuse it. He sure is a sneaky little dude though let me tell ya, he got me good today and I wasn't prepared for it all.
Looking back I wish I would have handled my exchange today differently, I wish I could have felt the Lord by my side instead of giving in to the dark side, but what's done is done and I must move forward from here.
This whole situation is bringing out some yucky sides of both of us that I could have lived my whole life not seeing, but it is what it is and it is up to me to choose how I am going to handle it. I can either give in to the nasty side of things, or do what Jesus did, hate the sin but love the sinner.
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