Daddy Days and Mommy Time

I am not going to lie, I have been looking forward to today all week. This is "daddy's" day, and at first I hated them, but now I rejoice in them. I needed this day, especially after our fun filled puke night, but honestly I just needed some quiet time, so me time, and most importantly the kids need daddy time.

A lot of moms I talk to that have gone through this tell me that it was sooo hard to let their kids go with their dad, and that they constantly worried about them while they were gone. I guess this is another reason why I was lucky to have the husband that I did, he was ALWAYS a good, responsible, and caring man. He loves his kids and was a single dad himself for almost 7 years, so worrying about them while they are with him is just not an issue for me.

However, knowing that they are now doing "dad" days, instead of "family" days, is a bit disheartening, I can't believe that overnight we went from a family that does everything together, to an every other weekend parent family. Ugh.... but we are adjusting. I find it so amazing that we have been made to adjust and accept what we can not change. The hurt, betrayal, and sadness I felt in the beginning of all this is coming to a dull ache instead of a constant stab in the heart, and we are slowly adapting to this new normal.

It will never be easy to accept that we are now a split family, but I know that we are protected by the hand of God, and that he will continue to provide and show the best outcomes for our family if we continue to listen to him and follow his lead. This is not the situation I ever thought I would be in, but I am in it. So its up to all of us to either accept what it is and move forward, or be stuck in the hurt and angst of it and never move forward.

So for now, I will continue to look forward to those few hours every other week when I get some time to myself, it is what I need to rejuvenate myself to be a better mommy to my babies. And my babies need that special time with their dad, they will create bonds that they will never forget, and while I am at home recharging I hope that someday they realize that their mom and dad did the best they could for them, and will continue to do so for their entire lives.