In the words of Taylor Swift- "We are never ever getting back together". I know God can make miracles, but in this case, I believe we area a lost cause. Certain things have come to light in the last 24 hours that have made me understand why my husband left, although the cold hard truths have brought me sadness, hurt, rage, and betrayal, in some ways all the things that were told to me provided me with some closure that I think I really needed.
That being said, a good friend said to me this last week these words, "you can let this make you cold, harden your heart, or make you bitter- or you can choose happiness, choose to open your eyes to what God has in store for you. Well I choose the latter thank you very much! I know first hand what being bitter and lost does for you, and I will not choose that for myself or my kids.
For the first time in over a month, when I woke up (at 3:30am thank you very much!) I knew I had to get a plan in place for my life, knew I had to step up and take care of me for once. Time to get a good solid plan in place for the kids as well as me, get going on this new life that we have been given.
God is not done with me yet, it may feel like it at times, but I know deep in my soul that he is the source of all good. The pain I am walking now will be nothing compared to the joy I will feel when his plan is revealed to me.
"The pain that I am feeling can't compare to the joy that is coming" Romans 8:18
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